As stated in my previous blog: I am not one to show my emotions unless I am completely comfortable. The people around me either have to be my family, or I have to be able to trust them very much. Once in a comfortable situation I am completely free and willing to show any emotion without filtering.
The only emotion I DO let out in public is anger. I have a very bad temper and I am easily annoyed. Unfortunately, when I am either of the two it becomes very noticeable to those around me. I get silent, snippy, sarcastic, and pretty much unpleasant to be around… I assume.
There are many things that can bring an emotion out from me, but the strongest is anything having to do with my family; pictures or anything that reminds me, of my nephews and nieces especially. http://share.shutterfly.com/action/welcome?sid=8AbtGjZw3aOGER&emid=sharshar&linkid=link2
On that URL you will find pictures from my niece’s, Isabella Marie, christening. Pretty much my whole family is there, except for my oldest brother, his wife, son and two daughters (I love them too). Now, all these pictures really stir me up. They make me feel proud to have such a family, honored that they are my family, happy to be there with all them, pissed off remembering the time my brother pulled off my bathing suit when I was a kid and hung it on a tree branch when I was too short and fat to reach it. But all these things make us a family, and these pictures, and more remind me of that.
Fortunately there is also pictures of my girlfriend, Michele, in there as well (rhyme not intended). She is another person that when I see a picture, or anything, that has her in it, or reminds me of her, I feel overwhelmed. I will spare you all the gushy details because I think I through some in on my last blog. In fact sometimes when I open my wallet and see the picture of her I will lose track of thought or “stop in my tracks,” literally. So if you really want to hear the lovey-dovey stuff… read some of my last post. She is actually one of the main reasons why I am getting better at emoting. She is slowly but surely showing me how better things can come by opening up to people, rather than being on the defense. I thank her for that all the time.
I think I am a passionate person, but like I said, I choose to show it to certain people. I don’t really like wearing my emotions out on my sleeve, and feel better by saving the strong emotions for those, in my mind, will appreciate them more.
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